About everything

This post will deal with school, the world, religion, family, friends, relationships and probably other stuff. This post will be divided (it is too boring all in one piece).

Ahhh, the old nice school. We all miss the days when you could do some homework already solved by the teacher, and have nice grades. Well, turns out university is not like that at all. They say "Hey, study this", and you go, find problems, study, solve some doubts with the teacher and BAM, the exam (the bam i stole it from a friend :P). But what sucks more is that i feel dumb.

You know, i used to be smart.Very. I could see what the teachers were talking about just for a few seconds and get it. I never got any strategies for studying or something like that. It was all so easy. And now, after four years of playing music (wich i love too), and hanging out, school is waaaay too hard. Now i look back and see all my classmates and think: damn, i am like they used to be. And that sucks, because i had a gift (yeah, i am pretentious), and now is useless. I could understand how everything worked, link it with other subjects, create a theory that i could almost call mine. And now i'm stuck with memorizing everything, with losing my mind if the pattern changes one bit. I am sick of laking that deep understanding that made me so happy in the past. Because, that is my goal. Not to repeat a formula. To know how it is constructed, how it behaves, and to change it at my will.

Life was good. And now i lost everything. I do have one friend who relates to that. And we both feel the same. it was quite relaxing to know that i am not alone with this "i am dumb now" feeling. But, hey, is just about catching up, right? RIGHT?