Just a piece

Lots of things have happened in my life. Lots of thoughts. From finally finish high school to meeting friends from 3 years ago. There's been a lot of cool rhings in my life but one of the most important is a simple talk with my friend. Yep, might no be life changing, but those talks truly take me back to my ideals and keep me on the right path (i hope is the right one).

Well, the love of my life so far is getting married. And obviously not with me. She will also have a baby. For a moment, when she first told me about getting married i was shocked, but i tried to understand her. I was hoping she would do it for a good reason. Not like i'm judging her, but i wanted her to decide that on her own and not be forced to do it. So that went almost normal. But the next day, on the phone, she told me about the baby. I holded my screams for over 4 minutes. I couldn't believe it. And then, a few days later i realized (thanks to my friend) that i always held her as the one who could fulfill my ideal for a woman. And i have done that with 2 persons. Every time i do that, i get hurt. Because in the end they are not what i thought they were. I thought of them and changed their behaviors to fit into my model.

As someone said, when reality meets ideals, is usually the ideals that step back. So i'll just stop doing that. I'll take extreme measures and stop jumping into relationships, cause that has never worked before. I don't know a single couple that would start their relationship just a few days after they met and lasted for more than 10 years. And i want to be with a girl for a long time. So i'll just stop trying girls. If they choose the same path than i and we meet is ok.

And i hope not to stay alone all my life (fear!!!). Cause no matter what has happened, i still care about those two persons. And they are my friends. And i will still give everything for them.

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Reading for the week: 1 Corinthians, 13

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I might be going to La Paz. Wish me luck ;)

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